So I tried these new things. I had a relationship that was fresh and new but it is now over and after 7 months I am back where I started. But I feel better about myself. I am no longer harmful towards myself and I am standing my ground more. He was a nice italian fellow but he was 3 years younger than me and It made a difference. He was a great drummer in a band, which I thought was attractive. Any man who is passionate or talented at something is attractive because to me that shows commitment and promise. In the end thought there were to many differences and I ended it. I am proud of it because I usually drag things out but I didn't want to waste anymore of this time. He is younger than I and has his whole college life ahead of him. He will be happy I am convinced and I hope he finds it soon.

I just turned 21 yesterday, which was not all that exciting. I had two drinks and my mom is convinced that I was hammered. It was nice to celebrate though, I got to see some friends that have been out of my life for far to long and now I realize how much I really do love them and miss them. I am just glad to know I have their support and love.

I graduate in December. I am starting to think long term now and it scares me. I have to be a real person and get my life together literally. I can no longer hide behind the facade of college. I need to get a permanent job and may need to move far away. But I am ready for these challenges.

As far as art goes I will post a ton of new stuff soon. I have time now and am becoming more creative. This semester I took many art classes so I have alot to show you all. Also over the summer I am taking ceramics. So my hands hurt but I am making pots...tons of them and now I am working on bowls and mugs. So hopefully you will see some art soon.

I also plan to keep you guys posted more.....so keep looking!!!